READY TO SAY GOODBYE

HEY SEXY PEOPLE! OMG I HAVENT BLOGGED IN A WHILE. LET ME THINK, WHERE TO START. UMMMMMM............. OK, WELL WHEN I FIRST STARTED BLOGING I TOLD YOU ALL THAT I WAS GOING TO BLOG ABOUT EVERYTHING. CLUBS, FUN NIGHTS, SEX, DRAMA, ETC. AND SO FAR ITS BEEN ABOUT MY NIGHTS OUT. WELL HERE'S A LIL' SOMETHING MORE PERSONAL. AS WE ALL KNOW I LIKE THIAGO AND YES, I LIKE HIM MORE THAN JUST A FRIEND. THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS OUT AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I HEARD THAT HE HAS A BOYFRIEND AND THAT THEY HAVE MOVED IN TOGETHER. AT FIRST I WAS LIKE WHATEVER I'LL ASK ABOUT IT LATER RIGHT NOW I'M JUST GANNA HAVE FUN WITH MY FRIENDS. ANYWYAS LATER CAME AND I ASKED THIAGO IF HE HAD A BOYFRIEND. THIAGO SAID YES, HIS NAME IS PABLO AND THAT THEY ARE LIVING TOGETHER. NOW LETS BE HONEST, IT HURT. IT HURT BECAUSE IT MADE WHAT I ALREADY KNEW A REALITY. HE AND I COULD NEVER BE. HE WILL FOREVER REMAIN JUST A FANTASY.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I ALWAYS DO THAT TO MYSELF. I ALWAYS FALL FOR THE GUYS I CAN NEVER HAVE. I'M ALWAYS "THE FRIEND", ANYWAYS HERE'S THE THING, I BELIEAVE IN LOVE, I ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL. I BELIEVE THAT THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE FOR EVERYONE BUT I ALSO BELIEVE THAT THERE IS NO ONE OUT THERE FOR ME. AT FIRST WHEN I CAME TO REALIZE THAT, IT HURT LIKE HELL BECAUSE I'LL FORVER BE ALONE. I'LL NEVER WATCH A SUNSET WITH THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE. I'LL NEVER HAVE THOSE ARGUMENTS COUPLES ALWAYS HAVE. I'LL NEVER COME HOME KNOWING THAT HE'S THERE. I'LL NEVER HAVE TO BE JEALOUS. I'LL NEVER HAVE THOSE MOMENTS COUPLES SHARE THAT MAKE EVERYTHING WORTH IT ALL. I COULD GO ON AND ON BUT I'M READY TO SAY GOODBYE TO THE THOUGHT OF EVER FINDING "THE ONE". FROM NOW ON I'M JUST GOING TO LIVE LIFE THE BEST I CAN , HAVE FUN WITH MY FRIENDS AND ENJOY EVERY MOMENT I HAVE WITH THEM.

THIAGO POSTED THIS ON HIS FACEBOOK, "JUST BECAUSE SOMEBODY DOESN'T LOVE YOU THE WAY YOU WANT THEM TO, DOESN'T MEAN THEY DON'T LOVE YOU WITH ALL THEY HAVE.". THIS IS VERY TRUE BUT WHAT IF ITS NOT ENOUGH?