POOL PARTY

OK SO YESTERDAY WAS MY FRIEND CHRISTINA'S BDAY PARTY, WHICH WAS A POOL PARTY, FUN RIGHT? NOT. SO I GET THERE AND FIRST THERE ARE KIDS EVERYWHERE AND IM SORRY AFTER WORKING ALL WEEK WITH KIDS NOT REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO A PARTY WITH KIDS, DONT GET ME WRONG THOUGH I DO LOVE THEM. THEN I SEE ALYEUS THERE AND THATS COOL WHATEVER ALL I KNEW IS THAT I WANTED TO SUCK HIS DICK AND HAVE SEX WITH HIM , THATS IT, JUST A ONE NIGHT THING. SO I STARTED DRINKING SO THAT HOPEFULLY IT WOULD LIGHTEN ME UP AND I'D BE A LITTLE MORE SOCIAL AND FRIENDLY BUT NO IT DIDN'T. SEE HERE'S THE THING CHRISTINA AND HER FAMILY AND ALL THE THOSE FRIENDS, THEY ARE APART OF ALEX'S LIFE, WHICH IS A LIFETIME AGO. THEY ALL SEE ME AND THINK OF ME FROM WHEN THEY KNEW ME BUT THATS NOT WHO I EM ANYMORE. ALEX DIED A LONG TIME AGO AND COCO CAME TO LIFE, THATS WHO I EM NOW AND I DONT MEAN TO BE AN ASS OR STUCK-UP OR WHATEVER ELSE, THEY JUST DON'T GET ME ANYMORE, THERE'S NO CONNECTION OTHER THEN THE PAST. DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? ANYWAYS AFTER THE ALCOHOL WORE OFF ALYEUS JUST BECAME ANNOYING TO ME AND I TRIED TO MINGLE BUT IT JUST WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN. SO I SAID MY GOODBYE'S AND LEFT. LETS SEE WHAT TODAY HAS IN STORE FOR ME.