LETS GET PERSONAL

ok lets talk about my personal life. so i come home today and frank (dad, not by choice) is home from mexico. before he left he ordered direct tv had it installed in the livingroom, moms bedroom, carlos' room, and the back house where my grandpa lives and nothing in my room but im like whatever, dont care. then frank tells my grandpa he has to pay $20 for it so my grandpa says no. frank takes it out of his home and brings it to me and installs it in my room. a couple of days later he tells me he wants to be connected to the internet which i have in my room and my room only. so im nice and tell him i'll look into it and see how much it would cost and what not. by morning he had left to mexico this was on a sat. i call my internet service but cant really get all the info i need till mon. when there open. so i call tues. cuz mon i sleep from being out all night on sunday. anyways they tell me i can have the internet through out the whole house but id hve to cancel what i have and put in fios which would be about $199 to do. no not ganna happen so i ask about getting another modem that would cost as well which i figured im not stupid. but im not going to pay more than what im already paying cuz i just cant afford it and i dont trust frank to pay me the difference evey month. so today i come home and he's back from mexico as i said and asked me about the internet again so i explain to him the whole thing and he just doesnt understand why i wont add him on to my service. so after about an hr of going back and forth he tells me what if i cancel mine and he gets the interent and adds me to his. so i say fine but what if you stop paying the bill or u cant afford it anymore; o did i mention he doesnt work, he's a drugy and yeah some how he's going to have the money for all this. so he tells me well if that happens i just order my own internet again. which means more money out of my pocket because it would have to be a whole new contract and what not. so i tell him that straight out i dont trust you to make the payments and i dont want to be fucked over. so he asked me if i think its fair that he's paying for me to have direct tv and i cant give him internet. fair question, right? well here's why we have direct tv now. we went from time warner cable which my mom was paying for to direct tv because frank ran the bill from about $60 a month to over $200 a month because he just loves to order porn. now my mom payed what she could but eventually stopped because she couldnt afford it anymore, can you blame her? after all every month adds up. so i tell him well i can give you the box for direct tv back. so he says, you want to do that and i say if thats what you want. then he says i already told you what i want! and i turn and look him straight in the eyes and tell him i feel more comfortable with my own thing the way it is because i just dont trust you. so he says ok ill get the box in the morning. i say, ill have it for you as soon as i get out of the shower tonight.

i dont do bribes or threats or anything else, not from him or anybody for that matter. i dont trust him, i dont like him, i dont love him , he's not a father, he's not a husband, he's not a provider, he's not good man or a man for that matter. but i will tell what he is, he's a woman beater, an alcoholic, a drugy, a person who walks out on his family, a low life who cant even make it on his own he had to come back because he lost his apartment, his car and his second family he left to take care of. he's a sick and perverted person and a waist of air and space ion this world. dont get me wrong i dont hate him, i just dont care. he doesnt exist to me.

update...
I JUST FOUND OUT THAT AFTER OUR LIL CONVERSATION HE'S TAKING THE BOX OUT OF MY MOMS ROOM TOO AND WHY BECAUSE SHOCKER, HE CANCELED IT. WHICH THERES A FEE OF $400 TO DO SO AND IM SURE HE'S NOT GOING TO PAY.

MY MOM PAYS FOR CABLE AND EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE CAN WATCH IT BUT NOW FRANK HAS DIRECT TV AND NO ONE CAN WATCH IT IN LESS HE GETS SOMETHING. UM YEAH TOTALLY FAIR. MY MOM TOLD HIM THAT. THAT IS WHY HIS KIDS DONT LIKE HIM CARE FOR HIM OR ANYTHING ELSE. HE DOES THINGS FOR EVERYONE ELSE BUT FUCKS HIS FAMILY TO DO IT. O WELL RIGHT?

DONT GET ME WRONG IM NOT HURT OR UPSET I JUST HAVE ALL THESE THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AND TIRED OF HOLDING THEM IN. IV DONE IT MY WHOLE LIFE, JUST BOTTLED EVERYTHING UP, WELL NO MORE.