Ok so the thing with Anthony is, yeah I like him, I like him a lot, what else can I say other than, I'm falling for him. I met Anthony at club lucky when it was at RED through Mark, The second i saw him, I found him attractive and shy, then i got to talking with him that night and had fun. Later that week he called me and asked if i was going to be at Varsity a club in irvine because he wanted to see me, so of corse i went. That night we danced a lil and talked a lot and not only was he attractive and shy but he was smart and going to school. He loves playing video games and he has big dreams. That night i felt comfortable with him and i told him that there was this guy that was bothering me at the club and there really was. This guy wanted to get with me but i was not having it, so anyways some other guy came up and Anthony thought it was him so he put his arm around me and just held me. I loved it =)
That night the guy that came up to me, his name was patick and we got to talking and at first i was like whatever but then he asked if he could kiss me and i was like UMMMM, ok, lol. Mark then invited me over to their place in San Diego for the weekend. So why not i went and when i got there Anthony came and jumped in my car so that he could help me get a parking. Then he asked me if i Slept with "that guy"? I told him no, in fact i never saw him after that night. That was the end of it and after a "lil" fight lol the weekend went really well. then came sunday and Anthony had Justin over and to make a story short, he was there to fuck him and it hurt and made me mad so i left. The whole story is in another blog. Anyways after that weekend we just stopped talking all together. A while back he posted something on his facebook and i commented on it and then sent him an IM saying that im here for him and since then it has gotn a lot better betweeen us. Like i mentioned in blogs before we spend a lot of time together now and we did LA Pride together and we text and talk on the phone a lot lol. Things are good, could be a lot better if you know what i mean lol.
I love being with him because he's funny, smart as hell, cute, dorky, sexy, he makes me laugh, he makes me comfortable and yet still gives me butterfly's in my stomach. I see how different he is from his friends, he's not as wild and crazy as them but still knows how to have fun. He loves playing video and comp. games, he's a health freak but not super crazy about it. He makes me feel safe and warm when im with him. I see him in ways that others dont. These are just some of the reasons why i've fallen for him.
Now the down side. To him we are just friends and even if i wanted to tell him how i feel, i know what his answer would be. Being around him so much i know what kind of guys he's into and i'm just not it. I'm short and fat, he like's tall, thin, cute and then some =) but he's not looking for a boyfriend because he's been hurt so in a way thats a good thing. To be honest as much as i love him and want to be with him all i want is for him to be happy, to find someone that makes him happy, that makes him smile everyday, someone that brings out the best in him, someone that push's him, someone that helps him reach his dreams and someone that he never stops thinking about all day long.
Ok well thats my dish on Anthony and my feelings toward him. now time to go have fun.
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