I've been thinking a lot about death lately, wanting one reason to live. Friday july 20th I found out one of my bestiez, Tyler Bradley ended his own life the day before. It breaks my heart but I know exactly what he was going through. Not feeling like you belong in this world, feeling like everything is just too much...
God I miss you tyler, we didn't talk as much we use to but when we did it was like we just talked yesterday. Its true what they say, best friends can can go days, weeks, months, years without talking and pick up right were they left off with no awkwardness. Tyler you were an incredible friend, from the very first night we met at the club. You took me as I am and never once judged me, you quickly became my brother and you will ALWAYS be my brother. You were always so full of energy and ready for anything. You stood up for anyone and always had their back. I remember that last time we hung out, it was for johnny's birthday bash. All three of us were going after the same guy, alex vuevas. We ended up losing to johnny but its ok after all it was his birthday lol. We had a lot of fun that night, you being an awesome bartender, I still have the pics from that night.
I remember the last night we went out dancing just before you moved back home. We met up at club lucky's house of blues and I had Momma say goodbye to you on stage and you loved it, it made your night. I know I wasn't the greatest friend but you always knew how much I loved you and you always knew that I would always be there for you when you needed someone to talk to. On many many nights you'd hit me up and we'd talk for hours sometimes all through the night. We'd talk about your boyfriends and everything that was going through your head. You trusted me because you knew no matter what I would never judge you, I may not have agreed with things you may have done but I never judged you for it. The last time we talked you were getting high with your boyfriend and of course being naughty lol. You told me that you had been keeping a secret not just from me but from everyone. You told me you had aids. That night I told you that you having aids changes nothing about our friendship and that I love you unconditionally. Then we started making plans, you said you were going to be coming to cali to visit and that we would hang out, I guess I'll be waiting a bit longer before I see you again.
Tyler, you will always be in my heart, I miss your smile, your laughter, and your big strong hugs that lasted forever :) till we meet again babe <3
R.I.P. TYLER BRADLEY <3
God I miss you tyler, we didn't talk as much we use to but when we did it was like we just talked yesterday. Its true what they say, best friends can can go days, weeks, months, years without talking and pick up right were they left off with no awkwardness. Tyler you were an incredible friend, from the very first night we met at the club. You took me as I am and never once judged me, you quickly became my brother and you will ALWAYS be my brother. You were always so full of energy and ready for anything. You stood up for anyone and always had their back. I remember that last time we hung out, it was for johnny's birthday bash. All three of us were going after the same guy, alex vuevas. We ended up losing to johnny but its ok after all it was his birthday lol. We had a lot of fun that night, you being an awesome bartender, I still have the pics from that night.I remember the last night we went out dancing just before you moved back home. We met up at club lucky's house of blues and I had Momma say goodbye to you on stage and you loved it, it made your night. I know I wasn't the greatest friend but you always knew how much I loved you and you always knew that I would always be there for you when you needed someone to talk to. On many many nights you'd hit me up and we'd talk for hours sometimes all through the night. We'd talk about your boyfriends and everything that was going through your head. You trusted me because you knew no matter what I would never judge you, I may not have agreed with things you may have done but I never judged you for it. The last time we talked you were getting high with your boyfriend and of course being naughty lol. You told me that you had been keeping a secret not just from me but from everyone. You told me you had aids. That night I told you that you having aids changes nothing about our friendship and that I love you unconditionally. Then we started making plans, you said you were going to be coming to cali to visit and that we would hang out, I guess I'll be waiting a bit longer before I see you again.
Tyler, you will always be in my heart, I miss your smile, your laughter, and your big strong hugs that lasted forever :) till we meet again babe <3
R.I.P. TYLER BRADLEY <3
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