HE MAKES ME CRAZY!!!!!

well heres the story, sry ahead of time if it doesnt make sence. awhile back i met this guy, jonathan, great guy, caring, affectionet, great bod has it all right? anyways he and i became bff's but along the way my dumb ass fell for him. then he got a bf which hurt when i found out so i stopped hanging out with him. cant hurt if hes not around right?

so after months of not seeing or hearing from him i go to my friends bday party and he shows up with his bf, but he trys to kiss up on me and be all touchy feely and im not having it. so i push him away and i leave. then about 2 weeks ago for whatever reason he texted me and we started talking that night, he asked why we dont hang out anymore and i didnt really give him an answer. but since that night we've been texting everyday all day long. he and his bf arnt a couple anymore but they're friends and fuck buddys. so this weekend they invited me to go stay with them at there hotel they got in weho at first i was like no, have fun but then 5 min later i called and said im on my way. BIG mistake. i get there and first let me say i having nothing against the other guy, his name is jacob by the way, but the fact that he and jonathan fuck. so anyways im there and my feelings for jonathan havent changed. altho my behaivor with him has. im playful and a bitch with him. its my way of protecting my heart. anyways at one point jonathan and i start wrestling and and all these feelings are there then he goes and takes a shoer and comes out with just a towel and stays like that for a while, i just want to take him right there lol. but jacobs there. finally we leave and jonathan gets a phone call from jimmy his ex and they start yelling so i get mad cuz he doesnt need to b in the picture anymore. so finally by 2 am im done and i get my shit and leave. then i keep thinking of jonathan and jacob together and it pisses me off. but i just cant say no to jonathan. it makes me crazy!!!