Then he broke my heart continued

Once someone hurts me and destroys whatever we had between us, I shut down. When I shut down my walls go up and I no longer have anything to say to you. Before we could talk about the dumdest things like the color pink and have hours and hours of conversation. After you hurt me I no longer have any kind of connection with you. You can ask me how my day was and all you'll get out of me is, "good." There's not much else I have to say. So after Kyle sent me that long text explaining his new relationship I pretty much didn't want anything to do with him anymore. Then he sends me a text which I ignore and again he sends another text, finally I decide I'll answer but I was very short with him, only giving one to two word answers. Then he says,

"Okay. Listen, I really like you and I'm only dating just for fun. Just someone to take me out and have a good time. NO SEX, no ultimatum of feelings involved. Just good, clean fun. I really do feel something with you. Idk... I just miss you and our talks and how intuitive we would be with each other. I hope I'm not ruining that. Idk, I guess I just felt I should tell you. I haven't been able to talk to anyone like I do you and I just miss it. I feel like without you to talk to and listen to and connect with, I'm missing a piece of me :("

After receiving that text, for the first time I had to let everything I was holding back out. We had a 3 hour discussion about how I felt, about how he made me feel, about the whole thing. Since then he has texted me and I sometimes answer and most of the time I don't. Last time I heard from him he had sent me a text tell me he was in town, in Newport beach. I hesitated at first but I did reply, it was very short because it went from "hi" to "why are you being distant?" And the truth is I was being distant. How am I suppose to be? Thing are never going to be as they were because like I told him in our conversation, he to me is just like everyone else now. In my mind he was this guy who came I'm and swept me off me feet unexpectedly. He stood out of the crowd and ment so much to me and held a get special place in my heart. Then he ruined all that and now when I think of him, he's no different then anyone else, if that makes any sense to you.

This all happened in January and it stop gets to me sometimes just like thoughts of Anthony still het to me. I still have feelings for them and will probably always have feelings for them but it is what it is. I'll add pics when I can, blogging from my phone doesn't allow me to add pics to any of my post.