Then he broke my heart.

A boy once told me, he had a dream about me. When I asked him to tell me about it, he said,

"You and I lived in new York together. I was doing my modeling and you were a makeup artist for the stars. It was morning, I woke up, we were both naked. I wrapped myself in our white sheets and walked out to the balcony overlooking our view of the city. You came out and followed me and held me tight and got in the sheets with me and held each other for a few moments. Then you picked me up and took me to the bed and we made very intense love to one another. It was amazing!"

Then he broke my heart...

This really cute boy named Kyle G. hit me up one day on Facebook and I didn't think anything of it at first, I mean after all I talk to a lot of people on Facebook. Then we exchanged numbers and we started texting every night, all night. At first I didn't want to give in to the whole idea that this guy could actually like me. So I do what I always do and I made sure that he didn't have some image of me in his head that was not at all accurate to what I actually look like. I described how I looked, I told him my weight and I sent pics without makeup lol. And not only was he still interested in me, he said, he's been with skinny, buff, etc guys and they all turn out to be ugly and that in getting to know me, he's finding me attractive and I turn him on. Even after that I still didn't want to give in to the whole idea. The more we talked and got to know each other, including our past history, I started falling for him. Kyle is sweet, tall, cute, thin, blue eyed, funny, sarcastic, light brown hair, well equipped down there ;) and has a very hot ass. But more importantly, he understood me. Even through text he knew when I was upset, hurt, sad, happy, etc. I trusted him and as we continued to talk I found myself telling him things that I would never tell anyone else. He told me very personal things too and although he broke my heart I won't share those things here or with anyone.

Kyle and I started Sexting ^.^ lol. And I really must say he turned me on like no one ever could. He brought down all my walls and got me out of my head and was able to pleasure me in ways no one ever has even to this day. When I thought of him I'd get rock hard. Just getting a "hello" text from him got rock hard lol. We definitely turned each other on to say the least. One night we made each other cum 6 times :) that was a fun might but very sore the next day lol. Kyle ended up being on my mind 24/7 I couldn't wait to hear from him every day. When he told me about his dream (dream above) I found it to be so romantic not because of the sex but because of the little details like living in new York. I've always wanted to go.to new York. He and I truly became one it was all new to me. The down side of the whole thing is he lives in Vegas. But new years 2012 was approaching and soon after he'd come to cali to see me.

New years day came and Kyle the boy who was all into me and wanted me now has a boyfriend that he met the afternoon of new years eve. I found out about it when I saw that he had changed his relationship status on Facebook. I'm not gonna lie it hurt a lot and I cried a lot too. All I could think at the time was how I could be so stupid and fall for him. He finally texted me,

"I hope u had an amazing new years! My relationship status did change and for some reason I just made a huge connection with this guy. I think u r amazing and I still want to talk and be awesome friends. I felt bad if I wasn't to tell you. I think you are amazing! Please understand and please still talk to me. I think you are amazing and I would hate to lose you :( I'm sorry but please don't rule out the chance of us ever being something because seriously who knows how serious this thing with him will last? I mean I feel something with u! It's just we r so far away. I really think u r someone special and believe it or not u do mean a lot to me. U were there for me when no one else was. U do hold value in my life. I'm not gonna lie, I actually feel guilty and am unsure about what I'm doing, I just would feel unhonest if I didn't tell you."

To which I replied, "its cool." Lol yeah I was going for the I don't care, I'm not hurt by it look but he saw through it. I definitely felt played with emotionally.

I'll continue this tomorrow in another post.