Moving Forward Doesn't Mean You're Apart Of My Future.

I'm slowly but surely putting my life back together :) as you can see I'm making some changes to my blog. I've added causes and organizations that I support, not all of them are on here yet. I'm making new friends and actually strengthening old friendships. Which reminds me of last night.

Last night Jonathan invited me out and I kindly turned him down by saying, "no thank you." He said, "ok." But as our conversation continued he said, "I hope you don't want to go beacause you dont want to go, not because its me." To which I replied, "I wouldn't be comfortable." He then said, "well if you dont want to move forward i cant force you...." At that point his words got me thinking and I've realized that I am moving forward and just because we're talking now, moving forward doesn't always mean you're apart of my future. I didn't tell him that nor is this directed completely at him. Its ment for everyone.

To me moving forward means its time I get a job again, its time I get a car again, its time I put my name back out there, its time I pay off all my debt, its time to stop wasting time and stop putting effort into someone who only makes you feel like an inconvenience. Most importantly its time I stop being scared of following my dreams. That being said I'm going back to school, I'm buying a sowing machine lol to explore what u can do and I'm going to do what I love whether I end up famous for it or not.