A lot has been going through the back of my head for quite some time now and today I feel like getting it all out. In the back of my mind I've been thinking a lot about relationships, what I want in a guy, comparing what I want to guys I've known, how guys should be and realizing they are nothing like that. Also I've been thinking do I do or have the qualities I look for in a guy? Do I do the things that I would love a guy to do for me?
The List:
When boys text you at night.
When boys text you good morning & goodnight.
When boys make you smile & laugh over the phone.
When boys hold your hand in public.
When boys run their fingers through your hair.
When boys take care of you.
When boys worry about you.
When boys have that perfect smile.
when boys are your bestfriend before your boyfriend.
When boys take the time to understand you.
When boys are a good kisser.
When boys are your dream guy.
When boys appreciate all that you do for them.
When boys rather be with you than anybody else.
When boys say, "I miss you."
When boys show you that not every guy is the same.
When boys play and wrestle with you.
When boys boys kiss you while taking a picture with you.
When boys realize they hurt you and do everything they can to make it better.
When boys show up.
Okay clearly my list can go on and on and on. Not to mention I haven't even got to the being honest, trustworthy, etc. When its all written down it may seem like I look for a lot of this in a guy but in action its not. And although I look for all these things just because you don't hold my hand in public doesn't mean its a deal breaker. What I mean is, just because you don't meet e everything on the list doesn't mean you're not a good match. But its things on this huge list of mine that I've compared to guys I've fallen for and have cried over and have come to realize they were never the right guy. For example, the last guy I fell for I would worry about him all the time. Once his boss and best friend had called me because he didn't show up for his morning shift and I called everyone he was with the night before, I called him over and over until finally I found him. I took care of him, when we were out a fight broke out near us I'd protect him. Once he was at work not feeling good, kind of sick so I borrowed my friends car and took him soup, all different kinds lol. It was canned soup lol but I made it there for him. I'm interested in getting to know and understand him. He's told me about his parents and as painful as it is, he tells me about guys he's interested in and I listen. I could go on but when I think about it he has never been the type of guy I'm looking for. When my house caught fire and I relocated to los alamitos for about a month, he never once came to visit me because it was just too much of an inconvenience for him. I rarely get a text from him first. For my birthday, he didn't wish me a happy birthday until the day was almost done as if he had just remembered. However he texted me an hour before my birthday to ask when my birthday was. But I will say he has told me he missed me, once. So when I compare I see that he was ne ER the right guy along with other guys I've stupidly fallen for.
I have never had a boyfriend or even been on a date but I hope one day if god willing I do get a boyfriend that I can be the best boyfriend I can be. Not only in saying the right things but doing the right things. Appreciating him and loving him and showing him that he means the world to me. Supporting him and always being there for him. No ones perfect, sadly not even me lol so when I unintentionally hurt his feelings I will do anything and everything to make it right, to put a smile back on his face because I would never want to be the reason for his tears, unless they're happy tears :)
The List:
When boys text you at night.
When boys text you good morning & goodnight.
When boys make you smile & laugh over the phone.
When boys hold your hand in public.
When boys run their fingers through your hair.
When boys take care of you.
When boys worry about you.
When boys have that perfect smile.
when boys are your bestfriend before your boyfriend.
When boys take the time to understand you.
When boys are a good kisser.
When boys are your dream guy.
When boys appreciate all that you do for them.
When boys rather be with you than anybody else.
When boys say, "I miss you."
When boys show you that not every guy is the same.
When boys play and wrestle with you.
When boys boys kiss you while taking a picture with you.
When boys realize they hurt you and do everything they can to make it better.
When boys show up.
Okay clearly my list can go on and on and on. Not to mention I haven't even got to the being honest, trustworthy, etc. When its all written down it may seem like I look for a lot of this in a guy but in action its not. And although I look for all these things just because you don't hold my hand in public doesn't mean its a deal breaker. What I mean is, just because you don't meet e everything on the list doesn't mean you're not a good match. But its things on this huge list of mine that I've compared to guys I've fallen for and have cried over and have come to realize they were never the right guy. For example, the last guy I fell for I would worry about him all the time. Once his boss and best friend had called me because he didn't show up for his morning shift and I called everyone he was with the night before, I called him over and over until finally I found him. I took care of him, when we were out a fight broke out near us I'd protect him. Once he was at work not feeling good, kind of sick so I borrowed my friends car and took him soup, all different kinds lol. It was canned soup lol but I made it there for him. I'm interested in getting to know and understand him. He's told me about his parents and as painful as it is, he tells me about guys he's interested in and I listen. I could go on but when I think about it he has never been the type of guy I'm looking for. When my house caught fire and I relocated to los alamitos for about a month, he never once came to visit me because it was just too much of an inconvenience for him. I rarely get a text from him first. For my birthday, he didn't wish me a happy birthday until the day was almost done as if he had just remembered. However he texted me an hour before my birthday to ask when my birthday was. But I will say he has told me he missed me, once. So when I compare I see that he was ne ER the right guy along with other guys I've stupidly fallen for.
I have never had a boyfriend or even been on a date but I hope one day if god willing I do get a boyfriend that I can be the best boyfriend I can be. Not only in saying the right things but doing the right things. Appreciating him and loving him and showing him that he means the world to me. Supporting him and always being there for him. No ones perfect, sadly not even me lol so when I unintentionally hurt his feelings I will do anything and everything to make it right, to put a smile back on his face because I would never want to be the reason for his tears, unless they're happy tears :)
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